Life

February 2008.


Sometimes life comes at you so hard it’s hard to breath. I feel that way right now. It seems that the harder you try the more obstacles are in your way. Take today, I started off sleeping late so I missed my early morning rendezvous. I totally forgot about it until I was doing my morning devotional and it hit me, I called, apologized and continued on my way. I get to work and I can already feel the cloud over my head, kind’of like Linus in the Peanuts cartoons. Anyway, I go about trying to do right and the 1st thing I do is forget all about the commitment I made to try to lose weight and eat a big piece of cake. I then realize that I had forgotten to include something in the announcements, something like the fact that my boss was leaving and there was a reception in his honor. Talk about a break down in the brain! I was so embarrassed and upset by it. It was too late to do anything about it, so I apologized and proceeded to go about the rest of my day. I go to lunch and for some reason, just can’t seem to get my self back together. I go back to work and end up being teary eyed for most of the rest of the day. I eat another piece of cake, might as well, since I’ve already lost the day. My boss is leaving, I don’t seem to belong, I made a huge mistake, my son is engaged, my daughter has a birthday tomorrow and I won’t be there because she lives all the way out in CA. I just feel a little overwhelmed today. God help me get through this thing called life! Help me catch my breath! Help me to know that you are in control and Satan and his life here on earth can’t have me! At least not for life!